well well

so a few things have happened in the last wee while, i dropped out of facebook and thus far am not suffering withdrawls and i lost my phone, so if you know me and read this from time to time send me a message with your name in it so i know who it is and then i will have numbers again. its saturday and i am at work. in three weeks i will be in japan. in 2 hours i will be home i'm not sure which is the most exciting.

so it would appear that i was drunk last weekend

i just read my previous post for the first time then, i honestly did not remember writing it. i thought breifly about deleting it but now i have a record of when i was wasted and life was a lonely living hell. now that i'm sober and things, life is slightly less of a lonely living hell so progress hey?

things that have been done in the last while - a bunch of shows, going to the espy for the first time at night!! (woo brave) way way to much beer way way to often and on occasion some 18yr old whiskey. not so much of that though, its precious. i went and visited nature as i realised that nature is a cruel mistress and will not come and visit me. i road my bike around for a whole day only to get brutally sunburnt. party!

i think i once posted about a spirit level for my mental state, if i did then good and if not then its news. so, the way that it works is that you rank your day on a scale of 1 to 10 and write the result on a calender and see if the good outweighs the bad, the last time i did it over a heavy month of working 12 then 16 days in a row it worked out at about 6 so i had a pretty good month. i will start this from today and rank this day as 4. just remember it can always get worse.

this is not a good idea

so , blog world ... you know when you are doing something that you know you could hate yourself for later . well i am, doing that now. fuck. oi i hate all of you. shit. fuck. i'm a floating turd. next time i see you i will smash you. please comment or at least ask about my mental health. fuck! you!

learning new tricks of sorts

so i have learnt that if your head is not the best then reading tales of druken regret from bukowski and listening to sad punk like the wipers are not the best ways forward. from now on happy kids tales and blondie, stalker music will fix everything.