i just read my previous post for the first time then, i honestly did not remember writing it. i thought breifly about deleting it but now i have a record of when i was wasted and life was a lonely living hell. now that i'm sober and things, life is slightly less of a lonely living hell so progress hey?
things that have been done in the last while - a bunch of shows, going to the espy for the first time at night!! (woo brave) way way to much beer way way to often and on occasion some 18yr old whiskey. not so much of that though, its precious. i went and visited nature as i realised that nature is a cruel mistress and will not come and visit me. i road my bike around for a whole day only to get brutally sunburnt. party!
i think i once posted about a spirit level for my mental state, if i did then good and if not then its news. so, the way that it works is that you rank your day on a scale of 1 to 10 and write the result on a calender and see if the good outweighs the bad, the last time i did it over a heavy month of working 12 then 16 days in a row it worked out at about 6 so i had a pretty good month. i will start this from today and rank this day as 4. just remember it can always get worse.